Omg Its less than a week. I’m for some reason not getting that excited. Maybe because I know that I’m just gonna be disappointed. Even with my low expectations. Who knows maybe its because he’s trying to date other girls. Maybe because I know we will never ever be the same. Idk we shall see..
First, obviously I’m drinking to have posted something in so long. I converted to pinterest, which I swear by, but I love this for the annonymus confessions.. Soo, not sure if this alchol induced post is gonna trigger off in the guy I am madly in love with, the one that 2011 kinda triggered off from. The one I somehow find myself always turning towards. What is up with me? Am I sane? This guy has some kind of voodoo spell against me, I can’t control it. No matter what kinda of shitty things he says or does I feel like I am always loving him. I know he is actively online dating girls out there, I guess I let that slide for now because we are not officialy any and Iam not out there,but what if he comes home and is still actively online seeking girls. Well my goodness I won’t know what to say about how I know, but it’s happening and that’s what will matter.
Okay post # 2. WTF is up with EDDY>Do you think he ever even rembers me? I highly doubt I’m a found memory.. the last time I talked to him was about herpes and craked out parents. Maybe just about parents the actual last time. You know I have hate for life for him, but if i ever did have the chance to talk one on one i would love to , he was my first love. He was always so miserable, and now i know he has herpes for life ( top secret HAHHAahahahahaahhahahhahHAHAH) maybe not so hahah top secret. Just would really love to get the chance to say hey you were my first love, you shaped the way I see my future forever. Yeah you definatly fucked my perspective up, But I’ve learned. And I’ve grown so much. I’ve grown from you so much. I won’t he blocked me from facebook, woohoo. I dont really care. I dont talk to any of his scater friends from here. High possibility I’m the herpes spreader to them. I dont give a fuck. Lear the facts you fucked up HARDCORE XXX FOR LIFE DUMB ASS MOTHER FUCKERS. OMG EDDYS VIRGIN GIRLFRIEND GAVE HIM HERPES GUESS HOW MUCH HE LOVES TO SPREAD THOSE FACTS. XXXXXXXXXX FOR LIFE EXPECPT THAT I HIT GIRLS AND MY OWN MOTHER AND PUSH HER INTO WALLS. AND HIT HER. AND BREAK HER DOOR IN AND PUSH MY EX GIRLFRIENDS DOOR IN OFF THE HINGES AS WELL AND ALSO PUSHED HER INTO THE WALL. SO MUCH THAT SHE CALLED THE COPS
AND THE NEIBORGS HEARD AND CALLED THE COPS. THE PRESIDENT IN BILLING FOR THE MEDINA COUNTY SANITARY ENGINEERS CALLED THE COPS 1 MINUTE BEFORE I DID. MOTHER FUCKER I SHOULD HAVE PRESSED CHARGES AGAINST ASAULT. PHIL ID ROCKING IN HIS GRAVE CURSING YOU.
Posted January 27, 2012 at 3:16am
I love you so much. I always have. Come home so we can finally be together.
Posted December 28, 2011 at 10:21am
I hope the sun shines and it’s a beautiful day and something reminds you you wish you had stayed.
Posted November 7, 2011 at 4:15am
I’ll go and sit on the floor wearing your clothes. All that I know is I don’t know how to be something you miss.
Posted November 7, 2011 at 4:14am
That was rough…. Thing to do now is try and forget it…. I guess I don’t quite mean that. It’s not a thing you can forget. Maybe not even a thing you want to forget…. Life’s like that sometimes… Now and then for no good reason a man can figure out, life will just haul off and knock him flat, slam him agin’ the ground so hard it seems like all his insides is busted. But it’s not all like that. A lot of it’s mighty fine, and you can’t afford to waste the good part frettin’ about the bad. That makes it all bad…. Sure, I know - sayin’ it’s one thing and feelin’ it’s another. But I’ll tell you a trick that’s sometimes a big help. When you start lookin’ around for something good to take the place of the bad, as a general rule you can find it. ~From the movie Old Yeller
Posted October 13, 2011 at 6:28am
There are things we don’t want to happen that we have to accept, things we don’t want to know but have to learn, and people we can’t live without that we have to let go.
Posted October 10, 2011 at 11:28am
I’m ruining things with this great new guy because I am still holding out, waiting for him. Wishing things were how they used to be a year ago at this time .
Posted October 9, 2011 at 1:21pm
